Some things just don't go the way planned.
'Cause what you planned didn't seem to plan out.
And then what?
You panic. You stress. Maybe you'll cry about it.
I wouldn't know....'cause things seem to go in plan for me atm.

OR that's what I think.
I have unfinished (& unstarted) assignments dued...a formal presentation up for grabs...& yet I can not find the will in me to panic, stress or cry.
I don't know why.
I wish I could have some sort of incentive just to make me work harder even if it's a teensy weensy bit harder. 'Cause I wanna work harder. I wanna work so hard, my loins & limbs & every joint are aching & sore until I actually have a normal or plausible reaction - maybe like dropping dead to sleep every night from exhaustion? 'Cause if I'm not dying. I'm not working hard enough. And if I'm not working hard enough, where is my money gonna come from. They won't be growing in my backyard 'cause I don't have trees.
Money doesn't grow on trees either.

I'm sleepy but I can't sleep.
And when I do sleep, it's unsettling.
When I wake up, I want to sleep again.
No. I'm quite sure it's not depression.
It's just a lull in my life.
Hopefully, a very short one 'cause I wanna be a complete & dedicated nerd again!

MAN UP CARISSA!!!